motivated

"Speak just the same. Because your language doesn't follow just one thread, one course, or one pattern, we are in luck. You speak from everywhere at the same time. You touch me whole at the same time. In all senses. Why only one song, one discourse, one text at a time? ..."- Luce Irigaray

"Isn't it crazy how everything is alive?" - a 6-year-old Little Brother walking around with his Big

i am so happy lately for no particular reason, which makes it a giddy sort of happy. maybe it's because i have big plans again, and those are always exciting. maybe it's because the things that had bogged me down some time ago have lifted up and let me breathe. maybe it's because i have 4 trips coming up, and travel makes me deliriously pleased. for whatever reason, i have the spark back under my butt, and things are rolling, so that explains why i have nothing/no time to blog for once. oh and also because i am re-addicted to nerd computer adventure games. in the past two weeks, i've finished Kings Quest I-III, maniac mansion, and beneath a steel sky. (i played MUDs when i was 14 and damn if i'm not proud of being an old school gamer.)

speaking of games, i'd been thinking quite a bit about a comment my old high school friend said about me. it was something along the lines of being intimidated to date me because i would get bored. that i'm the type of girl who always needs to be doing something. at the time, i had begged to differ and had even felt a tad affronted. but later when i was playing beneath a steel sky, i realized how addicted i am - not to games but to constant stimulation - when, during the cut scenes with long dialogue, i would open up another window of spider solitaire so i could still be doing something while it played. and at work, i play minesweeper feverishly at any spare moment, such as waiting for someone to answer the phone when i make a call. that takes like what, 10 seconds. but it's 10 dull seconds too long for me apparently. it's gotten to the point where my eyes glaze over and i just let automatic neurons click and snap until i finish expert in 90 seconds. if i could only apply this sort of obsessive application to grad school and lsat practice tests.