live your reality as best you can

comparison creates significance. my favorite. worst. better. "she's prettier than ... he's not as mature as ... " if all things were equal, i might as well be a monk, living in austere simplicity, and never have a romantic relationship. no one, after all, being deserving of more or less love than any other. but i'm not like that, and i do love people/things more or less than others, and when i think of inequality lately and how it serves the purpose of birthing meaning in our lives, i realize there is a beauty and flow to even the hardest of things to swallow. there are better, after all.

the other thing i noticed this past week was the absurd contrast between the realities some people have about their lives and what is actually taking place. in particular with people you trust. one day, you're giggling with a new boyfriend. two weeks later, he gets drunk and tries to sleep with another girl and never tells you about it. all along, you're still having dinner with him, giggling away and watching movies, content as a cow. or, here is someone else flying back to europe to erase from memory his reason for leaving it, to grout the cracks by trying to relive the experience from the start. you can change your reality by (d)eluding it.